When my Legs Broke, He Gave me Crutches

This post is about the same event as of my previous blog post but I had a different realization in this second part. I concealed the details on how our World War went. So, I’m going to tell you now.

As I was summing it all up, my mom won’t stop scolding me too. It felt like I don’t want to listen to her anymore. I started to raise my voice over hers claiming that I did not do anything wrong. I knew I was right that time. It’s just that, I was too disappointed with her decision and all the negative predictions on what will happen to me after my third miss. But she thought I was just so rebellious as not to accept her decision. She attempted to hit me a couple of times but I never allowed her to touch me. We were building up to the climax of our argument. She just misunderstood me. That was all.

When my brother saw me helpless against my mother, he hugged me tightly, covered me totally as not to let anything or anyone hurt me. I was crying. I can’t speak a word anymore. I can feel him around me, protecting me against all odds. That was the time that I was so, so down. His blanket made me cry harder, not because I was in pain but the joy that made my heart leap that my God sent me an instrument, not just any typical angel, but a person whom I thought that would care for me the least.

He brought me to his room, comforted me, brushed my tangled hair with his hand while he was still keeping me tuck into his arms and started talking to me as bravely as he can.

“I know you’re right but it’s your mother you’ve been talking to. You can’t do anything about it. We must always obey her,” and he started to sniff.

I didn’t see his face, but his voice started to shake. He pinched my cheeks like I was a little girl. He smiled at me, like he was trying to hide from me that he wasn’t crying but his tears won’t stop flowing.

“You know what; this is part of our developing stage. Been there, done that. But, I’m not encouraging you to do it, okay?”

I was just nodding to every word he said because I believe he’s right. I started to smile and started to accept all these realities in life. He was so insensitive to my needs as my brother. This was why I never expected him to do all of these for me. Now, I can really feel that I'm not alone. Now, that someone understands what I've been through. And, I thank the One from above.

-jann
01/22/07